Today I am not asleep. I’m very proud of this fact. And I’ve done tons and it’s only midday! Fatigue is horrible and it has been ruling my days, but I’m battling it now, it’s official.
I took the kids into school, tramped up town, saw my GP, picked up my prescription, bought fleaing and worming tabs for the furry beasties I care for, nit treatment for the kids in case they bring further small insecty pets home, arranged to go into the Help the Aged charity shop (locally known as Help the Hagged which is very un PC I think) for two hours tomorrow and ate a bacon butty from Greggs. Exciting stuff, if you live a quiet life that is. Which I do.
Less staring at the walls, more action! I had a chat with a friend the other day and we both decided that it would be good to do more stuff so we’d have more news to share. She mentioned she was going to do pole dancing lessons. I don’t think I could teach poles to dance, so I’m passing on that particular activity. I mean, they don’t do much do they? Perhaps I’ve just talked to them in the wrong tone of voice in the past. Lampposts just ignore me.
So, I’m just going to go into a charity shop and amble around. That’s brave for me at least. I’m also going to challenge my cash till phobia. I once worked in a co-op for extra cash when I was a teenager and the cash till was possessed or something. It just beeped and threw out random numbers, and I gave the wrong change a lot. That job didn’t last very long and I’ve avoided any job in retail ever since because I’ve worried they’ll make me use a till again. I’m facing my fears. Hopefully this will open up more job opportunities for me.
Oh and I’ve made a couple of dragonflies recently, both are custom make for customers. I’m rather proud of them. When I get down I lose my creativity and my lust for life – so I’m working hard to get past that too. Making things make me happy. I feel like I’m achieving something if I have something actually in my hands that I’ve put together. Here’s a couple of pics, I do love dragonflies, I think they’re beautiful insects.
So that’s me today. You could say I’m a bit like the dragonflies above – the right shape and size, but not actually doing what dragonflies are supposed to do…ie, flying. But I’ll get there. I’m just stretching my wings a little today. Flight will have to wait for a while, but I’m getting there. Hope that makes sense, in my head it does anyway.