I am in a blogging quandry! Help, advice, opinions very welcome. A few issues really. Please do read to the bottom, my biggest dilemma is there I suppose!
This blog was started because I simply wanted to write, I’ve always written diaries, huge long letters to people, daft poems etc etc. It’s something I love doing. The thing is I have never felt a desperate urge to advertise, it’s never been something that has woken me from sleep and flung me to the computer – the need to write passionately about extra-special branded loo roll! It just never happens.
I mean, I can do it. I can waffle with the best of them – but it just doesn’t float my boat. Unfortunately this does seem to be the life-blood of blogging at the moment, and it is hard to resist. Writing for the sake of writing isn’t going to help me gain toys for my kids, and it doesn’t seem likely that I’ll ever get paid to do it. Advertising on the other hand brings shallow rewards. And I want to support my family more than anything. There’s bugger all jobs around here, and my proof-reading career is never going to pay for anything more than nursery (not even that most weeks!) Absolutely nothing beats seeing my kids eyes light up, and call me a capitalist pig, but a quick route to making them happy is to write about and ‘promote’ things that they really want, so they get to unwrap exciting brown parcels from the postman.
I’ll be honest and say I wrote the Squinkies review with a sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach, that I was failing my readers and myself. That I’d sold my writing and my blogging soul for a couple of lurid, squidgy big eyed plastic toys, that I was writing for promoters, and not for my readers. Stupid really to invest actual heartache into a blog, but it bothered me! As it turned out, it backfired anyway because Sausage keeps trying to eat them and they scare the living day lights out of me because they’re a terrible choking hazard.
So, I’m asking for opinions. What do you, as a reader, want to read about? Would you mind me posting ocassional sponsored posts (and if the item I’m writing about is rubbish, I’ll sure as hell tell you) or would you prefer me to write more about family life? Do reviews put you off reading? Would you prefer to see more ‘linked’ in posts, for example #MagpieMonday #SilentSunday posts?
I’m afraid I’d rather have my blog read because it is worth reading, not just because it’s on page one of Google. I’d rather this blog gained more readers because people loved reading it frankly, not because it’s been networked. But then again, there are benefits, more publicity means more products come the Brink of Bedlam’s way and my family benefits. Without that, I am basically writing for the love of writing, and that doesn’t put bread on the table or toys in the toy box does it?
Please do comment and help me out here! I’m floundering around like a fish out of water here! (which is appropriate at least considering recent antics).
On a more serious note, and one which I have genuinely lost sleep over. I wasn’t going to include this, but any input would help me make my mind up about what I should do for the best really……….
I’ve considered completely giving up blogging because of a search term that someone used to find my blog on Google (these search words show up on my stats). They searched for ‘pictures of child weeing’ and found my blog and my family. Now I’ve tried very hard to think of why someone would legitimately search for that, but cannot think of any reasons that are not downright sinister. I do not have pictures like that on here, my kids are always fully clothed and I don’t even show them in their pyjamas or in their bedroom – but the thought of having someone trawling my blog and our life with eyes that look at pages that I don’t even want to imagine – knocked me sick. At a minimum, I am no longer going to post pictures showing my kids faces. I suppose this is the real issue that is bothering me, apart from anything else. I suppose it was a matter of time before something like this happened, and I feel incredibly naive for not thinking about it before.
I know there’s random wierdos on the street, but they can only catch a quick glimpse of my kids as they wander by. Through a blog, someone could track my children’s lives, their likes, their dislikes, their most important moments. The sickest of individuals could know so much about my children because of my indiscreet and thoughtless internet ramblings. I really am questioning why I’m here and if I should be. :O(